This week has not been a good one. I just couldn't seem to keep my head screwed on, and every time I turned around there was something new going on. Needless to say, I did not manage to accomplish all the things I needed/wanted to, so now I'm just irritated. Maybe I'll find some extra time (ha!) this coming week.
Random updates:
- Went to the church on Thursday to check out everything that's been ordered for the VBS younger kids' craft time. All the crafts are really cute! Once I got home and started messing with a few of them, I encountered some obstacles. I'm hoping that we won't hit too many snags when the kids are trying to make them! I'm so glad I'm working with Kim Deviney...she's way more calm and optimistic than I am (not to mention artistic)! VBS starts on the 21st! Bring your munchkins, and keep all the kiddos and workers in prayer!
- While we were at the church on Thursday, Zoe managed to touch/eat/roll in something that made her break out in head-to-toe hives. I have no clue what it was. She was fine, once the Benadryl kicked in, but I am SO tired of NOT knowing what's going on with my child! We will be taking her to the allergist so we can try to get a handle on whatever is happening. I'm just hoping that it won't cost an obscene fortune and we'll actually get some answers.
- My Bible study is...weird. No, it's really good! This particular study is very, very different from the other Beth Moore studies I've done, and I'm not really that great with change. I need to pray that God helps me step out of my comfort zone (a big deal for me) so I can truly benefit from this time. God wants to teach me something, and I need to listen! I also need prayer about having time during the week to complete my homework assignments. I did not get the first week done, and now I'm behind, which is a HUGE pet peeve of mine. I will desperately try to get this week's work done, because I know I won't want to go to meet with the group if it's not finished. I need time and motivation!! The one thing that is most likely to keep me from benefiting: getting in my own way. I don't want it to happen.
- On a really personal note, the end of this week has been extremely rough for me, emotionally. **If you're not interested in reading about womens' problems, I'd advise you to stop reading right now.** Every month, I get a really (emotionally and physically) painful reminder that I am definitely NOT pregnant, which causes me to flash back to the memory of the babies I lost. I spent most of yesterday in tears. If that isn't bad enough, we got two medical bills in the mail pertaining to my D&C in April. Also, I got a phone call about another bill from the pathology lab. You can only hear the terms "products of conception," "aborted fetus," "uterine tissue," and "contents of the uterus" so many times before you realize that no one else cares about what you're going through. This particular bill is a huge struggle right now, because someone screwed up and did something that is costing us a fortune, and I'm trying to track down the person that made the mistake. I know it wasn't me, because I was under anesthesia while this was going on. They're all blame-shifting, so I've spent hours on the phone, talking about something that breaks my heart. Honestly, I'm thinking that we just won't pay the bill at this point. I'm tired of fighting with medical institutions about it, and no one is going to help me. I'll bet they can live without $1,000 from us. They just might have to.
- I am in serious need of a vacation. I can't really elaborate on this one; I just thought I'd throw it out there.
Hope I didn't bore you all. Thanks for taking the time to read this (if you made it this far). I swear I'm not this much of a downer all the time. It's been a long week, and I am so glad it's over. I'm going to try to get five minutes of time for myself today, if I can pull it off. I need some alone time.
Have a great weekend, everyone, and I'll see you next week!
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If it helps any, I care about what you're dealing with. If you need to talk, or just need a hug, let me know. I'm right around the corner. Don't feel bad about not getting your homework done. I didn't either, and I only have one munchkin to deal with. And I feel you on the medical bills - we're looking at about $2000 worth of them from my surgery, and also trying to come up with the cash to fit in a round of fertility treatments before my deductible resets in August. Just try to remember, there's a plan in place for each of us, it's just sometimes a challenge trying to figure out exactly what it is.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Stacy! I know there's a plan for me, but I'm such a control freak that has to organize everything and know all the details of my future that it's so hard for me to just let it go and know that someone smarter (MUCH smarter...and calmer) is in control! As for the bills, I'm going to keep fighting. Medical/insurance stuff irritates me. Most of the people involved don't really know how to do their jobs, and they get away with it because the average person isn't willing to put up a fight. We'll get it straightened out eventually. :)
ReplyDeleteWell sweetie. I care about your loss of your precious babies. They are in good care, just as our three precious babies that we lost are. God is holding you close...relax into His everloving and ever knowing embrace. I hope you get that vacation!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm praying for you. I hope the rest of this week is better. Hugs and kisses!
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